"The tyrant dies and his rule is over. The martyr dies and his rule begins" KIERKEGAARD
I am “a lover, not a fighter”, and, all my life, my understanding and expression of faith has reflected that. Give me the beauty of worship and the wonder of words. Take me to the dance of music and the seduction of candles in the darkness. That’s my world. That is where my soul delights.
In that, I am living a self-created copy of the church of the Middle Ages. That church was never as I imagine it. Still, I live my days in the beauty of its theatrical set. I am not alone there because other people find it is easier to play with the beauty of Christ than to engage the implications of his presence.
The Gospels, (the early churches’ own best self-understanding), place its life in the middle of a war zone. Politics is crooked. Empires are cruel. A great gulf exists between rich and poor. Sickness stalks. Specters haunt, and hope has drained away.
Into this scene comes Christ, the warrior. He tells the truth. He challenges the entrenched. He mocks the Emperor and belittles the emasculated priesthood. This Christ touches the accursed, moves among the despised, heals the hopeless, calls to service those who are branded “useless”, and looses everything in a grizzly bloodbath.
Of course, the powers fight back. They stalked him, listening to his words to twist them. They threatened his team with bribes and torture. They mocked those who dared to open themselves to him. They used their powers to arrest him and squeeze him through the grinder of their legal system. They turned the crowds against his truth for the sake of crumbs and small favours.
It is war, and that war is going on today wherever a nobler, broader better life for the many throws itself against the barricades of the few who have and hoard it all. That is a long way from my candles, chalices, tapestries and heady wines.
There is nothing magical about faith in a time of war. It is not the stuff that captures the “madding crowd”. It is too hard, too dangerous, too ordinary and too fraught with threat and death. Yet this daily walk of risk and pain is the fruit of fellowship with Jesus Christ. It isn’t even “religious”. It is just thinking, feeling, daring humanity refusing to settle for lies and half-lives for itself, and for those who do not even realize their enslavement.
I have much to answer for when my life is over and its robes and sampler-Sundays are laid aside.
“IF YOU KNEW IT WHY DIDN’T YOU DO IT?
IF YOU FELT IT WHY DIDN’T YOU LIVE IT?
IF YOU SAW IT WHY DIDN’T YOU FIGHT FOR IT?
IF YOU LOVE IT WHY WON’T YOU OWN IT?”
Theatre is rich and rare. Then the play is over and the real world looms again.
Our way in its war is the way that tells the true tale.